Hello darling!

I need to remember to seek God, not just the answers He has to give me!

“Either Jesus Christ is enough, or he’s not.”

I joined a youth group because my boyfriend (now my ex) attended. I did get to know Jesus and experienced many situations where the Spirit made my heart content. However, I was still living a sinful life. Sexually, I drank alcohol at parties - I was underage - and was quite short-tempered with family members and swore when I thought was necessary. There are probably other things a God Girl should not participate in, but I simply did. I was involved with a new guy and things got very complicated; spiritually, physically and emotionally. Just because I believed in Jesus and he did show me things from time to time, I wasn’t FOLLOWING HIM. I was dancing at my own pace, doing what I wanted, fulfilling my own desires. My family eventually stopped attending church - although still had faith in God. Occasionally I’d go to church with a friend or my youth group, but other than that, Sunday was just another day to me. Then came a time where another friend of mine invited me and one of my besties to church. It was so different to what I was used to… I didn’t feel spiritually renenewed however. Over time, my parents were open to allowing me to attend a Christian church (over a Catholic one). This is where my faith grew. I got to know many wonderful people of God and that triggered an alarm in my mind: if I was truly a Christian, why haven’t my ways changed? I learned later that I didn’t trust Jesus enough; that I wasn’t letting go of the world and clinging to the cross on which Jesus saved me. I was too attached to the world to abandon everything. For me, I learned everything the hard way… it has only made me stronger in my faith and has brought me through so many spiritual awakenings I couldn’t BELIEVE I was missing out on before. If God’s there, it doesn’t matter where you are. If you are willing and trusting, He will change your heart and your desires. LET GO OF IT ALL, AND CLING TO THE GOD WHO LOVES YOU AND WANTS TO HELP YOU! Find a church and people that truly lead you to Christ - and then be prepared for the most exciting journey of your life! Be blessed all!

I think it’ll take at least - from my perspective RIGHT NOW - three years to function “properly” in a full-on relationship. At the moment, I just want to be independent - even though God gave His daughters “brothers” in Christ to help us when we’re in need - I feel as if it’s time to stand on my own two feet. I can’t stand having someone text me constantly. I can’t stand impatience, when I have a life of my own; problems to solve and people to help. The past 2 or so years has been enough for me. I don’t need a guy to help me find my direction, I have God. He is the only One I can truly rely on. He is gentle, a patient listener and His son is the only one who can really save me when I’m in the darkness. How amazing… Amazing love and amazing grace! Praise God!